eternal_life17

so today could have classified as a bad day.  and i will explain why.  i tried out for the ramettes because i wanted to make a danceteam, and i did horribly at the tryout.  i did most of the dance ok and then i just kinda forgot what i was doing and stood there.  i couldnt even get back into it because the other girl messed up already.  so i asked if there was anyway i could do it again and they said no. and you know me, i cried as always.  being sensitive sux.  then i got a real bad headache and i wanted to sleep.  then the guy almost wouldnt give me a pass to park here for the next 3 days.  and not to mention me and emily had to walk sooo far back from the parking lot.  i skipped work cuz i didnt feel like going. maybe i wont get in trouble!

and today is one of those days where i miss nick sooo much and all i want to do is be in his arms. but thats pretty hard when he is in florida and isnt coming back.....my life is pathetic, cant u tell, im a complainer.lol

Current Mood: sad

So I dont know if anyone noticed but people at URI are not friendly.  the girls dont let you be friends with them, it sux. its like im in high school but worse.  i hope it gets better.  so today was really boring. i had to work twice at the coffee place and it was scary walking home at 9:00 by myself in the dark across campus. 

im sad that i didnt make the flava unit, it would have given me something to do on weekdays instaed of sitting around.  i need to get active and do something, maybe join an intramural sport or something.  and im sad cuz i miss nick a real lot.  i just keep thinking about him and it makes me sad.  i think im going to visit him for thanksgiving break. i just need to see him. but im just afraid the feeling we have for each other will come back and it will suck all over again. but idk. im confused.

i need feedback...let me know what to do

Current Mood: contemplative

So last night was so much fun, party's here are awesome.  And we didnt even have to walk far at all.  U just gotta follow some people and you usually find some good parties.  Steph came to visit and she had a good time to.  We met some people in Bressler and smoked with them. its funny cuz we smoked right outside the building. and we didnt get caught, how crazy is that.  loved it

so i didnt make the flava unit, i guess i will just have to tryout next semester.  but i dont know what i am goin to do tonight cuz everyone is at home.  maybe i will make new friends and find something to do. or hangout with jay.  guess we will just find out later

So i tried out for the flava unit, good times.  It is so fun. its definitely a me thing.  I find out at 12 today if i made, wish me luck....

so my first week of college is coming to an end... my thoughts...Incredibly Awesome!. except for intro to philosophy which i dropped and now i need another credit.literally i credit. im only carrying 11 and i need 12. i dont know what to do. i gotta find a class that will let me in.....

so this campus has sooo many pretty girls and guys.  im in heaven!! lol.  Im goin home this weekend to work and take care of the cats.  should be a good time.  maybe a little partyin.. Happy birthday chris.  ur party is goin to be the shit.

i get picked up at 5 and im givin kate and maybe emily a ride.  peace

Current Mood: tired

last night was so much fun, me and the roommate made an alcohol purchase and made good use of it.  there are so many people on campus now, its crazy. people were so drunk last night it was funny.  i met alot of interesting people last night.

today i missed nick alot, it sux because i havent talked to him in a couple days and i dont know whats going on with him. it sux that i keep thinking about him and wondering if this will all work out, cuz i really want it to.  i guess i'll just have to wait until the 30th.

Current Mood: tired

So this is what college feels like! Im so excited because this year is going to be so fun.  there are so many new people that are very cool.  We moved in yesterday and hungout and unpacked.  then we had a foam party!!!! it was such a good time.  whats better than gettin wet and wild with hot college boys!!! lol im lovin it.

i cant wait until nick comes and visits me. i miss him so much but like at the same time i feel bad cuz he told me we were on  a break and we would see what will happen when he gets back.

my head hurts already and im wicked tired. lol i dont know how much of the staying up all night and hangin out i can handle if im already like this.  i guess we will just have to wait and see.

Current Mood: excited

MOVING INTO COLLEGE TOMORROW!!!! I cant believe the summer is over and i am actually going to college. it seems so unreal. i hope its as fun as im thinking it will be. i hope my roommates are nice to live with and we get along. im gettin up early tomorrow so i can try to get the good bed!!! lol i want the bed by itself so i dont have to worry about the other people. 

nick is coming home the 30th of this month for the weekend to see me and take care of some things then he will be deciding if he is going to stay but he said he most likely isnt.  his mom doesnt like florida and he misses me alot. i miss him so much and its only been 2weeks. its crazy. i guess thats what love can do to you.miss you baby!!

hopefully i get my internet working and i can update tomorrow about my moving experience.

Current Mood: crazy

went to the club last night, nv is closing so no one was there. we decided to try remies and it was awesome. drinkin!  Nick said we are kinda taking a break from each other because he isnt coming home for like a month. 

got my laptop today!!! i love it. me and nicole tried to hook it up to the internet but it didnt really work out.  i talked to nick today and we kinda understand each other now and we are just going to stay friends and see if anything happens when and if he moves back.  so i still love him!

Current Mood: blank

so last night i went to rock n bowl with steph and chris, made me miss nick.  talked to him today, still loves me! lol.  Hopefully he sees that me going to college wont change anything and he will come back. its only been a week but it feels like forever....

tonight would have or was the best party night. its so nice outside. sux cuz i babysat tonight and i just got home. i was supposed to get home at 10:30.  oh well i guess i will just go to sleep early. i gotta work the next week everyday until i move in to college!!!!.  and i have to find time to buy my books that are going to cost alot of money.  well im gonna go lay down now.  have a good night everyone. 

Current Mood: calm

kate your not the only one with college doubts and fears. I am sooo nervous but at the same time im so excited. and it is kinda nice that we are all going to uri so we can help each other and save each other from boredom. or at least i am depending on u guys for that! lol.  I was thinking about college today for a long time because its like a week away and i feel like i had no summer. it wasnt full of partying, hanging out with freinds an nice weather, or at least not as much as i would have hoped. but then again we all worked sooo much this summer, kinda sux but we will make up for it in college. 

i wrote this poem, i thought it was pretty good. i bet you can guess who and what it is about....

the vast reaches of the ocean

could not fill the emptyness in my heart

a thousand shining suns could not brighten up my life

the way your smile once did

the beating of a thousand tribal drums would only be a whisper

to the way my heart beats for you

a summer nights rainstorm could not compare

to the amount of tears my heart cries for you

and a thousand kisses would mean nothing

if they werent from YOU

Love you

Current Mood: confused

so the love of my life left to go to Florida! sux. too bad this isnt the first time someone i loved had to leave.

it sux that i miss you so much and there is nothing we can do about it.

Current Mood: sad

so it rained a ridicuosly lot at the fair. i also saw the bitch again and we had some words.  and its gay when people take other peoples cell phones and call u a bitch on them. but what are u gonna do.  i gotta guy who can kick your ass any day.. so think about it...

so nick is leaving at the end of august instead of staying for longer but i guess we are just going to enjoy the time we have left and have fun.

this entry is short, i got nothin else to say

Current Mood: crazy

so the boy of my dreams just got kicked out of his house! and his mom wants to move to Florida now and not wait! can u say that sux. :(  He is like the only person i have gotten close to since josh and now it just sux that this is happening.  i really hope he can stay around for awhile......

i wanted to go to the club tonight but i would much rather hangout with him tonight if he doesnt want to go. I dont know i guess i will see whats up in like half an hour.

so maine was sooo awesome, it was soo relaxing. i am so glad that u guys all decided that i could go, i really appreciated it.  I want us all to go next summer some time. u guys should see the pictures they are so cute. love you guys so much!!!

i will always remember the tent, tubing wedgies, eel water, pattle boating, SKYMAX, the mall and the long ass car ride!!! awesome weekend

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS!!!

Current Mood: giggly

so i hope we still go to the club... i want this kid nick from my work that i hungout with to go but he is playing bingo right now. He is so cute, we went on a date last nite and it was soo much fun. We went to chalks and played pool and steph and chris met us there to play.  he is so easy to talk to. 

so u gotta hate the creepy old guys you work with that think your cute and like you. cuz thats always fun! NOT lol.

I dont have anything else to say except i am excited for maine tomorrow and to work cuz i get to see nick if we dont hangout tonight. but hopefully we will. he rides a motorcycle!!!! souped on it

Current Mood: excited

So the hottest kid works with me now, Im so excited!! he thinks im cute which is even better, gotta love the florida boys!

I have to work everyday this week so i dont loose days when we go to maine on friday for the weekend. im excited to be doing something fun with all my friends cuz we havent hungout all summer together.  but its really hard when evryone has two jobs and most of you guys have guys.

so on saturday me and emily saw a dead body!!! how creepy. Providence is the craziest place to be on saturdays, i recommend not going. but the club was pretty fun, except for the nasty old guys that alwasy seem to find us. and the kid who wouldnt let me go dance anywhere but with him.

all in all i had a pretty good weekend. today was boring and tomorrow will probably also be boring so if u have something fun to do let me know.

Current Mood: anxious

that song just popped into my head.  josh told me albert is coming home today which is cool, i wish he would want to see me.

i hungout with josh last night and we went to see I Robot. it was good, weird but good.  i was surprised that we actually hungout cuz lately we havent talked or anything. i havent seen his mom in awhile and she was asleep by the time i got there.

we got the dance recital tape yesterday. i looked dumb. lol.

I think im goin to walmart to get some conditioner with my mom. if anyone wants to do something tonight, let me know!!

Current Mood: chipper

had to work today, kinda boring, both of my jobs. at least i am making money. i need to save a lot of money.  myrtle beach is going to be expensive and i keep spending money on clothes. im trying to stop.

i got a job on-campus at URI so thats good. i wont have to travel home to work. and i make my own schedule so its even better.   im excited about college cuz i am going to meet so many new people.

im bored. this area sux for parties now. at least i never know about them. oh well. i think i will finish my scrapbook, i still have to put my dance recital in. so i have nothin else to say... peace

so me, steph and kellianne went to the PROV in providence to try out for this dancing/singing thing. it was the most ghetto thing EVER! lol we had to dance to techno. for like 20 seconds! how are u supposed to show u can dance good in that little time. needless to say it was a waste of time. steph almost got into the modeling thing which was cool and kellianne def. would have made the singing if they actually made people sing instead of taking there names and numbers.

the show yesterday was pretty fun, long but fun. it was nice to finally hangout with emily like we used to. emily said we should go to 6flags and i think so too. i just hope everyone is not too busy to go sometime.  cuz i would love it if all the girls went again like last year. no guys!(only cuz i dont have one and i dont want to feel left out! :(  lol so just the bunch of us.

well this entry is pretty long so peace out.